Black, but not cold Expensive, but not gold Such a pretty girl with a rainbow in her head A liar, but not a cheat Not broken, but you're beat And if you didn't hate yourself, you would finally see Violet has no heart Violet is so smart Violet is perplexed Violet is a wreck Tearing back and forth Thinking does not work She cannot cake up on her makeup quick enough to breath Violet is so sweet Violet is so weak Violet is a whore Violet is such a chore Violet, sweetheart, you are so beautiful Please keep it all in your stomach Violet, lovely, we all feel overwhelmed Please keep that razor away from your skin Violet, sweetness, the magazines and television are not real Please understand that's so far from the truth Violet, honey, your sexuality is not the only thing you have to give You know you're not ready to give it away Violet, you're special Violet, you're beautiful Violet, your mind's sharp Violet, such an innocent heart

I have all of you, yet at times it feels like none of it matters, I'm by myself The emptiness just keeps driving all of everything and keeps me from loving life I know you all are there But it's so hard to see you I want so bad to feel you But I can't even feel me I owe my life to all of you But I don't even want it I just want to kill what This void has worked so hard to destroy Sad, sick and hopeless I'm so fucking sick Fucked, dead and drowning My whole is dead Weak, scared and shaking Will this ever go away? Torn, hurt and wilting I just want to stop hurting It hurts so bad I've been ripped off It hurts so bad I've been cut off It hurts so bad And I just can't Stop feeling so Fucking turned off It hurts so bad It’s like the closer I get to you, the more insignificant I become

The obsidian sparkles like a disposed of fingernail Like uses discarded, we wait for the next train Derailed, we wait alone The monotonous grind shields our eyes from wreckage The bench becomes a crucifix like you said you’d never nail yourself to The hammer was too tempting though A shade of black, a tint of white You’re nothing more than light and night Twisted tongue falls short of wire-cutters You make a fist to try and beat the pain We were all kites on a summer breeze Until we didn’t shelter at the storm I’m blinded by the deficiency I’m blinded by the way we don’t cry The sand becomes a grave like you said you’d never bury yourself inside of The chewed fingers bleed away the motives You lay on cushions that are metaphoric spikes Impaling your heart Impaling your mind Something you wanted, and could always grasp Now lays in your dreams like shattered glass A breath inhaled to swim to your fallen treasure Created a void Nothing forever So close your naturally heavy eyes And fade away into your lie You promised yourself it wouldn’t end this way But your creation holds nothing but decay

Chorus ________________________________________ This test was deliberate and I fell right through I accepted my ignorance, withering black and blue This test was beligerant, everything out of my hands Everything I couldn't change I wrapped wire around these hands Bridge 1 ________________________________________ With these failures I fell apart Jackhammer precision The paint ran and hardened Verse 1 ________________________________________ I can remember these times before Before these were all a memory I can look back so steady And see all the things... (chorus) Bridge 2 ________________________________________ Where growth and trauma co-exist All the bruises it did inflict The paint bled and I hardened Verse 2 ________________________________________ Origins of all my dysfunction A glue that is life spread all about Within the hole made when I fell down On my back seeing all these things seeing all thse things.... Feeling all this Verse 3 ________________________________________ All the woe inside me Making melancholy Pushed down within myself Fate casting this ordeal My smile-oblivious My mind-so treacherous Tears drip from the inside Mystery when I cry Ecstasy to suicide All the while laying Verse 4 ________________________________________ And we all burn for recreation And we all change like the seasons We cannot live without dying first We won't be born without being hurt (chorus)

Chorus ________________________________________ You tripped and fell And threw all this into an empty well You left all of this Behind to decay in piss Verse 1 ________________________________________ There once was a man Who had defect Destroying light Like we've all done... (we have broken, we've all fallen and stabbed all our chances to pick it up) Our roses wither From the blizzard The sun was blocked By your head Spiralling vaccum Swirling away Leaving destruction Planting a seed of decay Verse 2 ________________________________________ It is birthing It is scathing It is freezing It is failing The pathetic Is deflating (Verse 2, Chorus) Verse 3 ________________________________________ There was a woman Who had to stand up Emitting light Like we should do (We must repair, we must sparkle and embrace every chance to become) Our roses wither From the blizzard Ray exposure Embracing through her warmth The strongest limb Fulfilling past it's use But I can still fall apart If the weather lets me Verse 4 ________________________________________ The resin is too bitter Far too bitter to inhale The resin is too sticky Far too sticky to throw away

Verse 1 ________________________________________ Departure of a carer Remainder - to be held by it's creator A wide hole to be filled In a void - efficient tarp to save this rosebud Glue began to harden A person to sit awkwardly in the void Shattered glass - blazing love In a void - shielding the biting of these snow flakes Bridge 1 ________________________________________ The umbilical cord saw it's stiches Verse 2 ________________________________________ It layed on so thick I can only imagine how they felt A picture that was sad Devoured within a world of dead Black spots on the eye But unaware to the strength I was happy with the two Another ray comes through th night But none of that could stay It might work out that way A vain that collapsed Soil that was fed acid There's this blotch that won't fade It followed me everyday This rain and shadow cast Starting to break me Chrous ________________________________________ And it died And so did I A whole opened wide And I fell through The descent Went further down Exploring my world In the void Verse 3 ________________________________________ Eyes are wet - addiction Written word - a note I tucked in the coffin Seed that left - visiting This dead man - kicking the crutch from beside me Verse 4 ________________________________________ Filled feelings of lonliness be Another leg of the support beam Slanting my smiling at my denial Does it feel cold in here? (bridge) Verse 5 ________________________________________ Black spots on the eye But unaware to the strength I was happy with the two Another ray comes through the night But none of that could stay It might work out that way A vain that collapsed Soil that was fed acid (Chorus)

Verse 1 ________________________________________ Four bugs sleep in the soil That instills all I need to live A poison resonates from them All I know is they're not biting me Long ago I learned how to Block out those memories It became blissfully easy Not remembering they were there Verse 2 ________________________________________ Because the sun came out to shine Someone we loved, to make everything right New protection For the planter and I She became filled I slipped out our eyes New pedals showed Where old ones broke Filled from the holes Bitten by ghosts Verse 3 ________________________________________ The sun provided A brand new warmth For the first time I lived within summer Verse 4 ________________________________________ The darkest shadow began to show Blocking out all the sun's rays It day-by-day gets colder I know it's still there, I feel a warmness in my head I no longer can see it, I pray my goodbyes A coldness numbs me as the sun dies Verse 5 ________________________________________ All the bugs inside this ground began awaking Everything's so cold and I'm shivering A shell is born as the color drains I am nothing more than a memory Verse 6 ________________________________________ I am breathing death As the machines are turned off Watching as my father Drifts along I can feel a cold So numbing I don't cry Blank and nothing As he dies Verse 7 ________________________________________ And I look up to see my mother crying I look back down at his face to feel nothing Everything quickly perishes inside my mind Every moral I had learned unwinds Chorus ________________________________________ My heart was shred that day My heart withered into a scab I picked and chipped 'till it went away I flaked and peeled day to day My energy became hatred My energy became insecurity Self-disghust and judgement Became the only thing real to me Verse 8 ________________________________________ I drowned out the screams of my former self If I had to endure, he too would stay trapped in this cell

“You’re quite the showoff aren’t you there?” said the peacock to the skeleton who was just trying to feel “You run around this Earth, acting out, just trying to make up for the sense you don’t have. Stop trying so hard to receive attention, just let it come to you.” “Put your clothes back on, you make yourself so vulnerable,” said the skeleton to the whore, just trying to get by. “You walk these streets offering all of yourself and you don’t even keep any of your own. Why don’t you just cover yourself up and never let anyone inside?” Overflow When you can not love yourself Overflow Use this lens on someone else Overflow Pouring out onto everyone else You’re heart, it breaks, it tears, it flakes Open the mouth of someone else Let all of it pour inside them Charred rain of pain, enter the brain Can you break hearts so fast as you burn your own? How fast can you scold their faults that are your own? Insecure Insecure Outsecure Outsecure “You’re just so fucking proud of yourself, aren’t you” asked the whore to the woman who made something of herself. “You drive around in your fancy car to your elegant restaurants, not caring one bit about anyone else. You’ve lost touch with reality. You’re in a fucking dream.” You turn away from yourself But you still see the same things You cannot change all them Until you can change yourself Will you dare to recognize it’s you who’s wrong? The judgment you radiate is unjust and wrong Tear Tear Tear Tear Overflow When you can not love yourself Overflow Use this lense on someone else Overflow Pouring out onto everyone else You’re heart, it breaks, it tears, it flakes Open the mouth of someone else Let all of it pour inside them Charred rain of pain, enter the brain You have to control yourself Before you can accept anyone else Realize as there’s more attention paid Their aura is your iris Cobblestones create your callus Look at all those with their shoes Stare them down with your malice Why the hell would they choose to lose? “You have a gift, why don’t you give it away?” asks the woman to the peacock who hates his colors. “You have such beautiful colors you cold mesmerize others with and get yourself ahead. Use your gifts and others’ weaknesses to your advantage. Overflow When you can not love yourself Overflow Use this lense on someone else Overflow Pouring out onto everyone else You’re heart, it breaks, it tears, it flakes Open the mouth of someone else Let all of it pour inside them Charred rain of pain, enter the brain Can you not describe yourself and see all them? Do you hate all them when you describe yourself? Hold on Hold on Hold off Hold off