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Realize, Accommodate

by The Trying

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1.
Nothing But Decay 08:12
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The obsidian sparkles like a disposed of fingernail Like uses discarded, we wait for the next train Derailed, we wait alone The monotonous grind shields our eyes from wreckage The bench becomes a crucifix like you said you’d never nail yourself to The hammer was too tempting though A shade of black, a tint of white You’re nothing more than light and night Twisted tongue falls short of wire-cutters You make a fist to try and beat the pain We were all kites on a summer breeze Until we didn’t shelter at the storm I’m blinded by the deficiency I’m blinded by the way we don’t cry The sand becomes a grave like you said you’d never bury yourself inside of The chewed fingers bleed away the motives You lay on cushions that are metaphoric spikes Impaling your heart Impaling your mind Something you wanted, and could always grasp Now lays in your dreams like shattered glass A breath inhaled to swim to your fallen treasure Created a void Nothing forever So close your naturally heavy eyes And fade away into your lie You promised yourself it wouldn’t end this way But your creation holds nothing but decay
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Schema Stir 06:05
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Stop assuming people are nothing but thieves Stop assuming people are liking you for you The gun and the blood on his hands does not mean he killed a man Stop assuming people are materialistic Stop assuming people love who they are The nice clothes and her money does not mean she’s successful Stop assuming first impressions are accurate Stop assuming people are stupid from small mistakes Just because you think it is wrong don’t assume that’s what’s going on Stop assuming people have to fill gender roles Stop assuming that the stereotype fits Don’t trust popular belief blindly so much that you can not think critically Our beautiful forest has been burned down by rhetoric These heaps of ash come from a place where most of us forget The empty shun sun for those of us who want to replant This green is unusually bright to the stubborn rods of night Join the Schema Stir Where we can be human And not bow our heads Break down these draining walls And embrace who you are Embrace who we all are
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The Epiphany Poem 07:30
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5000 sorrows fill this sorrow-less being Why do I feel alone? This isn’t how I’ve tricked myself into feeling It’s hard to…to grasp what I’ve killed myself over is wrong I can’t…I can’t trust my instincts anymore because…they don’t…they don’t even exist I never thought the demolition process would be by my own doing It’s time to heal It’s time to seek happiness over control Why twisted me so much anyway? I’m tired of the hate within I need love How did I veer so far away? I’m like cancer I corrupted the wholesome and created all this hate Can I reverse it? That would show…true strength Do I even have it? I’m sure I do I’ve lived this life of obedience that I’ve put up on myself So powerful that it just decayed everything inside of me I want to love so bad it hurts I have to be strong enough to deal with…life I want to know what it feels like to be loved I want to let somebody love me I’m tired of the borders that I have set up to keep control Such wretched woes to laugh at such pathetic foes Made – created – frustration – throwing away complacence For no reason other than complication Supposed – created – in morbid amplifications Just to lose, ‘cause that’s all the day Until…one day you’re on the other side and you realize you are the wrong one You’ve made the mistake But then you realize it’s only one on top of so many others But when you’re the wrong one and you’re staring at yourself through tear-stained mirrors You see you want to change, for better Through pasted, fractured fallacies that you’ve created to help cope with pain that was never really there Made – created – worthless – complexent To ever-rival all that you think was taken from you You know, just sit there, laughing, ‘cause now you know that all you thought you were dying for All that…that time alone where you thought…where you thought…that…you tried to figure out how the world worked And you figured it out for yourself, how everything worked. How people work, how people should be, why you’re better than everyone. All of that, that you thought about and figured out, alone. Alone… Then you realize you’re wrong Something happens…or multiple things happen and you realize you’re wrong And…it’s kind of a relief Because maybe things aren’t nearly as bleak as you may have thought they were And you laugh a little ‘cause you can’t help but smile and know that…that…it really might be alright. For once From here on out, it really might be alright.
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The Cycle 05:05
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Idiocy wraps itself around the sad innocent Your insecurity Attacking because you embrace the part you don’t love We’re all victims When you pass it You lose your right To obtain sympathy Why would you want to discourage the progress? Your actions hold us all back Our world doesn’t have to be dog eat dog You’re pulling back Tearing them down Primitive ape What you’re doing is wrong Kill the destructive Patterns of your life Putting away The great downfall Sever the grip That’s making you slip Stop burning the crutches That could help you Pain only Causes more pain A fist just can not Make you sane There is nothing That can be gnawed And the secretions Could help you Break the chains you bound Stop yourself from killing How you feel, how you sound Break the back of love Tears come from the worthless The shot one shooting A face that you see Scars you know weren’t deserved Heart gripped by your pride Learn to let it go Learn to stop the abuse You can let it go Unbend what you have mangled You’re not to be the one who is perfect You are to be the one who makes mistakes None of us should care not about bruises Especially the ones that we make
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You're Not the Only One 06:36
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You are cold, you are numb, and it feels like no one understands No one could have ever felt anything this deep before The weight is getting too heavy and you feel like you are done No one could have ever felt anything this deep before The sticks, the stones, your teeth marks. They all grow. They all flow. And you look around and you know no one knows The stage grows lonely as the cast has left and the lights are all off No one could have ever felt anything this deep before (something real that you should notice.... everything's not sugar coated.... everyone will break their promise.... it's up to you to make a negative a positive....) Face yourself, you're not the only one who tried to leave the sun for the way of the gun someone with the same impression, same feeling emotion reeling, playing cards never dealing sittin on a hand that's devastating open it up to a world that's waiting you'd be surprised how good it feels when the open wounds begin to heal but - you always wait for your time to fail so you can tell everybody they can go to hell now - part of it is confronting yourself huh - until then you're only playing yourself well break the holds now break the binds clean out your mind n find lives divine when ya - take hate - wash it away opportunity for freedom from the chains you are not alone not the only one find someone, anyone, looking for sun look at the sun, look to the sun life - real as you want All your reason all your proof, all you convince yourself that is real None of it is made up and no one understands Reality is reality, what you feel all must be necessary None of it is made up and no one understands Any emptiness you feel, it is never your fault You are not the one in control of yourself Did you ever think that you could be the one who ruined the salvageable play? And most of it is made up and you don’t understand?
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Porcelain 10:02
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Fail the hole that has been dug around you Savor that bitter taste, it will flee soon You can’t pretend that all of it isn’t in your head Release your jaw Release a defense of insecure image Against your back – concrete just hurts so much His face is cold and your body will become as such A porcelain doll in heat A porcelain doll to beat A porcelain doll to crack for fun The eyes are welling up The lips are crumbling down The launch is pulling back A porcelain doll enslaved A porcelain doll enraged A porcelain doll opposing the hammer The screams are so unheard The tears are ignored The doll is shattering Breaking down… A close hero, casting the demon aside Inspection – showing how close was the chill Tattered heart – smiles dissolve and give up House of pain – no attempt to subside the source And when it all just becomes too much That’s when it ends When the gun becomes enough A porcelain doll in heat A porcelain doll to beat A porcelain doll to crack for fun The eyes are welling up The lips are crumbling down The launch is pulling back A porcelain doll enslaved A porcelain doll enraged A porcelain doll opposing the hammer The screams are so unheard The tears are ignored The doll is shattering Breaking down…

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released April 19, 2008

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The Trying Cincinnati, Ohio

The Trying is a solo music project from Chris Kaetzel. I blend sounds from a wide array of genres and influences to create a unique sound to encapsulate a myriad of emotions and topics. My lyrics are always genuine, no matter the content, and that is a major driving force behind The Trying. ... more

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