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The Epiphany Poem

from Realize, Accommodate by The Trying

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5000 sorrows fill this sorrow-less being
Why do I feel alone?
This isn’t how I’ve tricked myself into feeling
It’s hard to…to grasp what I’ve killed myself over is wrong
I can’t…I can’t trust my instincts anymore because…they don’t…they don’t even exist
I never thought the demolition process would be by my own doing
It’s time to heal
It’s time to seek happiness over control
Why twisted me so much anyway?
I’m tired of the hate within
I need love
How did I veer so far away?
I’m like cancer
I corrupted the wholesome and created all this hate
Can I reverse it?
That would show…true strength
Do I even have it?
I’m sure I do
I’ve lived this life of obedience that I’ve put up on myself
So powerful that it just decayed everything inside of me
I want to love so bad it hurts
I have to be strong enough to deal with…life
I want to know what it feels like to be loved
I want to let somebody love me
I’m tired of the borders that I have set up to keep control

Such wretched woes to laugh at such pathetic foes
Made – created – frustration – throwing away complacence
For no reason other than complication
Supposed – created – in morbid amplifications
Just to lose, ‘cause that’s all the day
Until…one day you’re on the other side and you realize you are the wrong one
You’ve made the mistake
But then you realize it’s only one on top of so many others
But when you’re the wrong one and you’re staring at yourself through tear-stained mirrors
You see you want to change, for better
Through pasted, fractured fallacies that you’ve created to help cope with pain that was never really there
Made – created – worthless – complexent
To ever-rival all that you think was taken from you
You know, just sit there, laughing, ‘cause now you know that all you thought you were dying for
All that…that time alone where you thought…where you thought…that…you tried to figure out how the world worked
And you figured it out for yourself, how everything worked.
How people work, how people should be, why you’re better than everyone.
All of that, that you thought about and figured out, alone.
Alone…
Then you realize you’re wrong
Something happens…or multiple things happen and you realize you’re wrong
And…it’s kind of a relief
Because maybe things aren’t nearly as bleak as you may have thought they were
And you laugh a little ‘cause you can’t help but smile and know that…that…it really might be alright.
For once
From here on out, it really might be alright.

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from Realize, Accommodate, released April 19, 2008

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The Trying Cincinnati, Ohio

The Trying is a solo music project from Chris Kaetzel. I blend sounds from a wide array of genres and influences to create a unique sound to encapsulate a myriad of emotions and topics. My lyrics are always genuine, no matter the content, and that is a major driving force behind The Trying. ... more

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